oh waukesha...

i have officially been home now for... umm... god, only two days i guess. it feels like a week. i have hardly been home, just using it for a place to sleep, really... and i was reminded again today why. my mom is a nut case.

honestly. everyone knows it. especially when there is stress involved. so apparently they're (my mom and her husband) having some sort of christmas party tonight... which i'm sure they told me at some point, but i have a tendency to block them out. so shoot, i wasn't aware. i wake up today at 11 to vacuuming... which is possibly the worst sound to wake you up for an hour. i get up at 12 to do some laundry, and my mom laughs at me and says, "oh, you think you're going to get to the washing machine?" i walk in and the room is now a storage room for shit. i am told to clean out my bathroom so my mom can make it shine... yells at me that i'm not fast enough when i'm still working on it, and when i finish, and sit down here, she opens the door, and throws a hanger i apparently forgot on the floor next to me. she's crazy. honestly. in the face of cleaning, she is no one to be around. it's terrible. she yells like it's her job. at least our house is pretty when she's done i guess... oooh here she is again, while i'm writing this. ughhhh days like this remind me why there are those 3.2 seconds i'm glad to be at school.

sometimes waukesha just doesn't do it for me. well, most of the time actually. the only positive thing about coming home is that i get to see the friendly faces i tend to miss out on during the year. so yesterday, and the day before for that matter, i was off to brookfield to chill out with tim and pretty much do nothing of the productive sort a) because what is there to do and b) i feel as though i have been productive enough in the past couple weeks. so the day i got back we went to blockbuster and just sat. which was possibly the greatest thing in the world. yesterday, i was a little late in getting my shit together, and our dinner/movie date was ruined by the slippery roads that were the skating rink of waukesha... 30 mph on 94 is very frustrating, let me tell you... so we ended up just going to see spanglish... which was a little more family-fun-latino than i thought it would be, but funny all the same... and going to arby's afterward since everything was closed. it was very obnoxious. and btw, if you have any ideas re: what there is to do in brookfield other than eat, or go to a movie... let me know:) amanda wanted me to say hi to brookfield yesterday... and i was happy to do so... although there wasn't much to say hi to. just a general shout did it. i hate how i can want to come home so badly, but when i get here... it's just... not as exciting. maybe i just think so because i'm one of the first ones home. hopefully when everyone's back.............

so tonight i must find shelter other than here for fear of having to converse with too many adults about my life, that they half-care about, and their life, which i could care less about... "wow you've gotten so old! how's school? glad to be on break? what are you studying? oh that's nice." over and over again... small talk alone makes me want to vomit... there's no point to it and it is just not neccessary. avoid it at all costs is my motto. if i don't know you well enough to have a normal conversation that does not consist of the predictable, stereotypical questions well then you're just not worth it. (of course there are exceptions to this... people that don't ask these questions and instead give me something worthwhile to speak of or are just cool enough not to be idiots) and putting on a happy, smiling face for more than three seconds is NOT my strong suit, let me tell you. or just ask my fellow circuit city employees... who insist on asking if something's wrong all the time. [sigh] but that's another story altogether. so since sarah's plane just got in two minutes ago... perhaps i will work on putting on some normal clothes and heading over there... perhaps.

off i go.

something corporate in a month and two days... i feel the countdown is allowed to start:)