gobble, gobble.

thanksgiving is pretty overrated in my house. or underrated, depending on how you look at it.

this year i was placed at my mom's, although i'm not all that sure it really matters.

here i sit, bored out of my mind, waiting for the turkey to be done, while my mom, her husband, and my 90 year old grandma watch old home movies. THRILLING, isn't it.

all this holiday really means to me is that i am stuck in my house with not so exciting middle age and beyond adults until my friends are done eating with their families and willing to hang out.

it's sad, really, that i have so lost my sense of family that i don't care about this day of thanks, otherwise known as the slaughter of an entire native race holiday. well, i suppose i care; it's a good idea to have a day devoted to acknowledging the people or things in your life that you may not reflect on on a more regular basis, but for my "family," it's just a day with my grandma where we have more dishes to do than normal. it just doesn't feel like a holiday.

days like this, along with easter, christmas, and any and all other holidays that make me fully recognize my only-child-ness and lack of near family, make me really want to pop out the babies when i grow up. i've never been very matronly, or one to get girly and talk about how much i want kids ever if at all, but it has such a nice idea with it. new traditions; a chance to start over with the whole family-thing. give my kids relationships that will last them longer than any others in their lives [i read that somewhere, how siblings are the longest relationships you will sustain - more than parents, spouses, friendships, etc... quite a thought for me and my lonesome.], you know? idk, a base for them.

things i am thankful for:

~ second chances. and third, and fourth, i suppose.
~ the small family i do have.
~ moist turkey for dinner.
~ soft jersey sheets.
~ my old, home friends that still hold priority over any and all new.
~ new friends that are so different from the home ones.
~ timothy.
~ the standardized neccessities such as food, water, clothing, and shelter provided by my biological and other family.


gobble, gobble.

ps, please don't call this day turkey day. clearly it really has nothing to do with a turkey aside from the ingestion at meal time. give thanks for it, but celebrate other things, like family, friends, and warm houses.

the end.