"Intimacy is a four syllable word for, 'Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy.'"

if you think about it in real perspective, don't you want to know, when it's over, that you did all you could? to make it work, to make him happy, to be someone he'd be proud of...

shouldn't you then, in theory, remind yourself of this concept everyday so as to avoid it when the bottom really does drop out?

~ words i wrote in my handy journal [that coincidentally has an uncanny resemblance to that of dr. jones's in the last crusade... tie and all... hooray gifts.] the day before the bottom dropped out.

good timing.

so i had decided that i want to be enraptured with something. by something. but more, and most, importantly, i want someone to be enraptured by me.

isn't that what we all deserve? someone head over heels, willing to hold on through it all... someone who looks past the fights and the petty shit and is willing to stick it out because of the simple love... someone willing to stay. i think i deserve more than i give myself credit for. doesn't everyone?

natalie told me in spain: "it's possible to have it all."

everyone puts up with things when they're in really in love, because for some stupid reason, the love overshadows almost all of it. "it's fine" after three seconds b/c it doesn't matter anymore.

most of the time.

enough was enough, apparently.

i heart grey's anatomy. consequently i leave you with meredith grey's ingenious writers with indispensible life advice:

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.