shocking.

this is me, procrastinating as per usual. i have a paper due tomorrow that i don't even want to think about, let alone work on, so here i be.

viginia tech. holy balls. kind of makes me stay in my house. dead bolt all doors behind me. not talk to strangers. or talk to them in order to avoid being shot at later.

i learned about everything this morning b/c handy msn as a homepage fills me in on what i should know that day if something substantial occurs. i got to class and watched some live footage in attempts to grasp the situation, not really understanding. i was glad when the rachel ray talk show was interrupted for an ann curry update, along with President Bush's short take on the subject.

i got back to my apartment and watched cnn for what seemed like forever. i just couldn't wrap my mind around what happened. it makes me feel afraid, but it was mainly just so sad. more so to know that the gunman killed himself. i don't know what i would do if my child was murdered and i never even knew the reasons why. someone on cnn said something to the effect of, "it's just as well that he's not on this earth anymore." i can see where he's coming from, but i wish that the gunman didn't get the satisfaction of taking his own life and not having to face the victims or the families he affected.

i hate serious posts. i always feel lame, but i usually don't invest much into the news. i recently watched a show regarding columbine on the nat'l geographic station and perhaps that's why this situation got to me more than it would have. it's just craziness.

i hate that journalists are hounding the president of the school and police officers about how they handled the situation. i watched the initial press conference that they held and i actually think they did everything in their power to do what was right for the students of the school. someone said the journalists were just scapegoating, and i agree. it upsets me to watch coverage and hear the anchors attempt to blame the campus police or the heads of the university, when it is fairly clear to me that they did what they could and what they felt was best throughout the day.

idk. it's just so sad... i suppose i should get paper-writing.