you're welcome in advance for the random update.

i recently felt like telling one of my friends about my life... a few random facts that may have been missed out on, so i thought i'd turn them into a life update blog because it's summer and i'm bored with my life currently:


1. i've been working quite frequently and i work for the next 6 days straight. today was my day off. hooray... looking forward to next monday, aka next day off, already. mixed feelings about all of this work. kind of annoying, but i'm really looking forward to buying a new camera... and a swim suit... and some new summer clothes.....

2. i went to an old friend's house a couple days ago and had some wine and chatted. so nice it was unbelievable. it sincerely made me wonder what i've been doing with my life the past four years without her regularly in it.

3. i'm starting to like people a lot more than i used to. i think seeing them when they're not yelling at me for no reason [i.e. "um, i didn't manufacture this vcr. don't call me a fuck bag, please."] gives me a new perspective on life.

5. i recently grilled hot dogs for the first time this summer. i like the smell of summer. and hot dogs. they seem to coincide sometimes.

6. i saw the new pirates movie - did you?

7. there are two small bugs flying around on my computer screen currently. scratch that, three. i don't know what they are but they are very tiny and very annoying. bugs are gross, so i don't usually kill them. they seem too small to live another day anyway.

8. i leave for las vegas in approximately two weeks. super excited to see some family, and some cirque de soleil:)

9. i like to snuggle. i like affection. i will miss these things for the upcoming study weeks.

10. i kind of miss having just a random thought or idea i could write about, versus these lame, uninteresting updates. here's hoping for some excitement in my life.


the end.

goodnight. sleep sweet.

lucky duck.

and it continues.

lately my semesters have been pretty touch and go when it came to effort... usually more "touch" than "go."

like others, i've always had slacker tendencies... i was the one working on a 20 page research paper the night before it was due. i almost never did readings. i'm still a back row baby, i.e. unless there is no other possible way, i will be in the back row of the classroom, usually seated near a door or a corner. i doodle while others highlight. i tend to get bored easily and consequently am inclined not to go to class if i can avoid it.

but even with these bad habits, i manage to pull grade point averages out of my ass that i'm not embarassed about. four a's and a b for a semester full of, "i'm not going to class tomorrow." "why not?" "i'm going to be tired. i can feel it." or, "i have to study for this test... how do i only have two pages of new notes?" or, "maybe i should pick a topic for my 12 page research paper that's due in five days."

when i say i'm nervous about my grades every semester, i'm not being humble. i genuinely walk a very fine line each end of term. yet somehow, some way, i've been doing well. now look - i know that i haven't been a complete idiot - i've done my work and handed [almost] all of it in on time - and the things that i do hand in i put effort into. part of me believes that i do deserve the grades that i've been getting... but another part wonders how i pull it off.

i just can't help being surprised. maybe i should feel more proud of myself. maybe i should work a little harder next semester.

my goal for next semester, my last of actual class work, is to find myself at the end not afraid of my grades. knowing that maybe i doodled less and went to class more, and consequently will be confident that i did well. i don't want to be nervous anymore. wish me luck. it will probably last a week or two. especially with another 8am class on the agenda...

doodler.

i once attempted to last an entire class period without doodling in the margins of my notebook. it doesn't matter if it was a 50 or 75 minute class because i didn't make it either way. i probably made it 15 minutes, tops.

hearts. stars. my name. curly cues. snails. moons. scribbles. anything that strikes my fancy, i put in the margins. sometimes over my notes. i don't think i've ever made it through a class without drawing something unrelated to class content in my life.

it's kind of embarassing.

flip through the pages of my notebook, and maybe you'll see why this semester hasn't gone so well for me. writing "bored" in cursive letters and outlining them forty seven times isn't exactly productive.

better luck next year...

seriously can't sleep.

i probably shouldn't've taken that 3pm nap today... even though it felt fabulous, it's now officially 145am the night before my first final. granted, it's not until 315... but i didn't exactly study my ass off for it. we'll see how it goes.

random story:
at work last night a girl that was probably in middle school somewhere waved me over. "we think you look like someone," she said. she looked at her brother and he nodded slash shrugged. she looked at me again.
"who...?" i asked.
"oh. vanessa anne hudgens. do you know who that is?"
"no."
"have you ever seen 'high school musical'?"
i couldn't help but smile. "no, i'm sorry." i really have seen one scene from it. it was on forever ago and i stopped to see what all the dancing in a gym was about.
"well, you look like her."


hahaaa. i wish. i googled 'high school musical', found the only three-named actress and giggled. if i were this chick, i'd probably be the most popular girl i know. my boyfriend would probably be much happier in life as well:) granted, she probably looks a little less sex-pot-ish in a disney channel movie but still... what a joke.


sign me up for that makeover.

loves and loathes.

loves:

~ a girl at work made $250 on a 10 hour shift. she sighed and explained she was hoping for $300. pretty much triple what i'd make at my old job. i'll take it.

~ sleep. for some reason i need it/want it more than usual lately. most likely because my body knows i have things to do and consequently shuts down under the pressure.

~ the stars at night in whitewater. random, i know, but considering how lame the city is, i find comfort in the fact that i can find one thing i really enjoy about it.

~ helping someone get a job. i've never actually had a job interview myself, so being a personal reference for someone else gave me some confidence for when i actually need to deal with it personally. side note: job interviews seem ridiculous. everyone says what they feel the employer wants to hear, or phrases talents and skills in a flattering light. consequently, how does any employer learn anything sincere from anyone? this confuses me.

~ laughing through the mall. mi novio hates the mall slash shopping of any sort more than anyone hates anything in the world i've decided. however, this makes leaving enjoyable and makes me laugh. i still wish i had a more solid shopping partner in life, however... :)

~ my dog. he's 12ish and pretty much a pain in the ass but i love him:)

~ the rose quartz earrings my dad brought me back from croatia.

loathes:

~ no one at work understanding me and vice versa. i miss seeing familiar faces and knowing i can be a nerd, dancing around and making jokes amongst them all. i'm nervous i'll never really fit in with the seven people i work with.

~ finals week. my research paper. i HATE research papers. and i'm going to be an english teacher. hopefully i can avoid it in my classrooms... or turn them into 5 page papers. that would be nice.

~ the fact that because i got a c on the very first test in my layout class determined my final grade in the class. i got a's on the next three assignments and calculated that even if i ACED the final, i would still get an 88 in the class. email to professor: "i would hate to think that just because i got a c on the very first thing we did in class it completely ruined my chances of getting an a. do you just add up the points or do you take things like improvement into account?" professor: "i add up the points." screw you, lady. now, i can get an a, b, or c on your final and still get a b in the class? thanks for the motivation. AWESOME.

~ being one of the last of my friends to get out of school. i hate having so much to do while everyone is either home for the summer or GRADUATED. crazy.

~ not riding donkeys down the grand canyon when i go to las vegas to visit family in june. it's seriously one of my goals in life. who wants to just look at the grand canyon? i want to ride down it on a donkey:)

~ having to continue to do work as soon as i X out of this website. fdjkslag;jk

exhausted.

obviously, since i have what feels like five thousand things to do tonight for school, i thought i'd spend a few more minutes procrastinating at my computer.

facts:

1. i am exhausted. too exhausted to use all capital letters to spell out exhausted, in fact. working two jobs on fridays is usually somewhat managable, but going out afterwards, sleeping poorly due to still (!) being sick, and going back to work on saturday... followed by another night of 6 or less hours of sleep... i just can't do it. my body is hating me.

2. the fact that i am still somewhat sick is ridiculous. i have never been sick this long in my life i am fairly certain. it doesn't help that the health center employees are idiots, i suppose. hopefully my antibiotics kick in... stat.

3. i have been a super movie geek lately. renting, theatres, whatever. i love the films:) alpha dog... motivated me to look up the actual story of what the movie depicted. super depressing and made me think for a while. little children... love the narration. like a documentary. because it was based on a book it's as though someone is reading to you in parts while you get to watch it at the same time. depressing again. disturbia... i loooooove me some shia lebeouf. ever since even stevens on the disney channel. i am a loser. still. i haven't seen a pg-13 suspense movie that actually had me on the edge of my seat in... probably ever. i liked it. hot fuzz... so silly. those british. get me every time:)

4. i figured out what my all time, number one, nothing is higher on my list pet peeve this weekend: slow mergers onto the freeway. it just doesn't make sense for anyone. when entering the freeway, it does noone any good to go 40 mph. it's unsafe, it's ridiculous, and pisses everyone off. stop it.

5. i hate the last two weeks of school. projects, papers, and exams. is it not possible to assign the biggest things of the semester earlier? is it written somewhere that it is mandatory to load students with everything hard, difficult, or plain time-consuming at the time when they are least motivated? hate it. too much to do. i don't want to think about it anymore.

6. i have a new job, and i've never seen so much money in front of me after a day's work in my life. i feel like a millionare. however, i'm waiting for the day when i want to start shooting customers, because who am i kidding, a restaurant on the lake doesn't exactly bring in low maintenance clientele... although once they have a few mojitos in them, everything gets a little sunnier. it's hard work, but i'm pretty confident that i'll get the hang of it all pretty soon.

7. it was cold today. i didn't like it one bit.

8. i really like the something de chocolate desert at the olive garden. i ate there for the first time in what feels like a year and indulged myself. i was pretty full, and i don't usually get dessert, but the picture looked fabulous. it was a warm chocolate cake-ish thing with strawberries and vanilla cream. heaven. i highly recommend it.

9. i have to start being productive. i meant to fold clothes at least before i started all of the things i have to do and sort of forgot about it.

i suppose that's enough procrastination for now. see you on the flip side.