so long, sweet summer.

is it really mid-august already?

i have accomplished nothing in the past three months that i have been away from school. if i were to assign an essay titled, "What I Did This Summer" to my future class, i would be embarassed by my own personal response.

i worked a new job, which has its positives - i became a tiny bit more people-friendly, made a very good amount of money that i quickly squandered, met some fabulous people, and finally learned to carry a tray in one hand and a jack in the other in one trip... but it all kind of feels like a waste.

every summer up until this one has always seemed fairly exciting... or, if not exciting, at least spent with enough friends and away from formal productivity that it actually felt like summer. this was an exception in a lot of ways, and that makes me sad for the future.

all i really did was work. i went to bars with coworkers, bars with old coworkers, i went to state fair [thrilling, i know...], went to a ton of movies... but nothing seemed to have the same pizazz as earlier in my life. i could probably count on my hands the dates i have been on, the outdoor experiences i have had, and i don't think i've done anything this summer that i've never done before. yuck.

tomorrow i'm meeting tim after we work [again] to find a spot to watch the meteor shower. i'm not sure if i have the times right, or if the place i picked out will have other people with the same idea there to ruin my privacy, but at least it will be an experience that doesn't have to do with delivering food to a table, or a new movie plotline. i'm looking forward to it.

i'm still kind of bummed about the past couple handfuls of weeks, but perhaps i should work on looking on the upside of it all... like i've been coerced into drinking a lot more? :)

as i read this over again i decided i must be in quite the debbie-downer mood, consequently:

amendment:

things i enjoyed thus far about summer:
1. las vegas. although i had been there previously, it was fairly new and it was fabulous to spend time with my family that i don't see very often.
2. chicago. it was only for about 12 hours, and i slept on a very uncomfortable floor, but it had moments i am able to giggle about to myself, and to me that seems to be the only thing that matters.
3. the birthing barn at state fair.
4. being asked out to lunch.
5. laughing, being goofy, making 'that's what she said' jokes at work.
6. going to a movie by myself. who needs to sit next to someone you can't talk to anyway?
7. sleeping in, even if it's never quite a full day off.
8. reading.
9. not feeling that bad about spending so much money on drinks at bars.
10. still being able to see friends that haven't yet moved out of the state with their respective job fields, which is something that i am afraid of more and more.

10 is good, right? :) the list will continue...