what's a synonym for "ridiculous"?

i've always hated being called ridiculous. having my behavior deemed ridiculous. i think it is an incredibly unfair word, and one that should be avoided. kind of like "crazy". alas, my "ridiculous-ness" cycle has apparenly started again, as i was acknowledged as this last night. sigh.

for the record, a synonym for ridiculous is actually "unreasonable". perhaps not far off from my behavior occasionally, but it irritates me more than anything to be labeled as such.

it is fairly demeaning and very obnoxious.

i am afraid my behavior makes things too hard for me and everyone around me sometimes, and that makes me nervous.

on a not all too unrelated note, one of my good friends told me yesterday that i make bad decisions. doesn't sound so shocking when i type it out, but to hear it outloud is shocking. he also told me that if we ever dated i would have to lie to him a lot.

on a very unrelated note, i have decided today to attempt to eliminate the adjective "fuckin'" from my vocabulary, for it has spiraled out of control and become the only descriptor i'm capable of using. 'grab the fuckin' remote.' 'he was in that fuckin' movie.' 'you know, the fuckin'... the fuckin'... fuck.' etc.

the end.

ps. regardless of what my behavior was labeled last night, for the record, i went to bed happy and woke up smiling, so maybe i'm on the right track.