epiphany.

i couldn't fall asleep tonight. as i was setting my current book on the floor next to my bed to try to sleep for the third time, my eye caught a number of misc. items on the bottom shelf of my night stand - a shelf stuffed with random things i haven't looked at in years. i saw a few pages of typed text and pulled them out of their place between memories.

stuck between a note and an anonymous poem was a letter i received in august of 2004.

an excerpt:

"Lauren, you are great. Sometimes you can be a little cantankerous, but I don't mind. I like it. I like you. I would not trade this summer for anything. It was GREAT. Wasn't it?"

the paragraph that follows, one that i am happy to be able to keep for myself, that noone will ever read, that the sender will never remember... almost restored my faith in the human race... or at least boys. i had forgotten that it IS possible to find someone that will love you for everything that you are... cantankerous nature and all. for some reason, i had forgotten that, and/or never believed it.

i'm glad i found the email letter, sent to my old aol account that i almost forgot i had. it was a bittersweet read, but i know i will now remember it for a long time.

now, back to the long and lonely search for another one like that. 123 go.