[insert sigh of relief here]

apologies. it's been too long.

so i'm finished with school. finished with the dorms. finally moving, like a big girl, into my own apartment by my lonesome and preparing for the year ahead. sounds so good.

other than the incident with my mom last week [thanks so much to the friends that mean everything and that were there for both me and my family. love you.], it's just been school and packing and home.

but it feels so good to be home.

this year has just been so... confusing. full of the highest highs and the lowest lows, and all kinds of inbetween craziness. inspiration. anticipation. anger. apathy. liars. lovers. liars again. heartbreak and happiness. contentment for a moment or two. decisions every second between.

my mom asked me today if i had fun this year. i opened my mouth to spit out some generic answer or another... and had to take a breath... really thinking about it. did i have fun this year?

it seems like i've come so far... the beginning of the year was such a different time in so many ways. friends transfered here, others there; i had a boyfriend, then i didn't. man. who would've thunk it. i vaguely remember having a conversation with andrew re: "where will you be by the end of finals" and never in my life would i have said here. i suppose, when i really look at it, i came full circle. i'm pretty sure i'm exactly where i've started. the forty million bumps in the middle didn't do anything to who i am or where i was heading, so screw everyone who said they would.

i made a friend or two, which is always a plus, but pretty much everything else was routine. my consistent friends are still the ones from high school, some more complicated than others, but all pretty much the same. i didn't lose many friends, unless i look at all the people i met freshman year that i somehow lost touch with, even though they're only a floor or two away, or even across campus. sounds so far in theory, but really... what's a few extra feet.

as for the fun... there were a few moments that made the bumps worth it this year.

even so, let's all give a sigh of relief for the end.